Well I wish I could say that my life consisted of something remotely interesting at this point, but sadly it doesn't. I have a weekly routine of class in the morning, playing with Cooper, dance practice, homework, and sleep....and then I repeat the cycle. I sincerely look forward to the end of the semester, but I do not look forward to all of the all-nighters that are required to complete all this work. Plus, the end of the semester means I officially have one semester left of college. How frightening. I still remember not being able to wait to come to college. Its crazy ironic how I spent my entire childhood waiting to grow up and now that I am 21, I just wish I could be a kid again and not worry about anything. I mean let's face it...with the current state of this country, my future consists of either struggling to pay for my family since I'll be paying for all of my parents generation to retire, or I'll be speaking Chinese after China officially takes over the US in order to reclaim all that we have borrowed from them. Either way....the outcome is bleak. Sorry for being a debbie downer. There are some things I look forward to, and I hope to God that my miserable idea of what the future will be like is completely false. Only time will tell. I do look forward to getting married and starting a family. Most people my age are concerned with getting the perfect job and making lots of money, however, no matter what, I won't be making lots of money in the non-profit sector. That's not to say I won't be rich though. Helping others is by far the most fulfilling thing I have ever encountered, so at least I will love my job. Not many people can say that. Plus, I want to be to my children what my mother was, and continues to be to me. My role model, cheerleader, best friend, and counselor. I am so grateful to both of my parents for the life I have been blessed with and I hope to one day inspire my children in the way my parents have inspired me.
I honestly have no real plans in life. I believe that when the right path comes into my sight, God will direct me towards it. My only true plan is to follow His. Think of that what you may, Lord knows I've been criticized enough for that belief, but I find it so...bleak to think that living for any other reason is ok. How depressing it is to live with no greater purpose than to make yourself happy. Are we really such selfish creatures? I would like to think not, because if we were, why would we have such strong feelings of love, compassion, empathy, and care? It is natural for us humans to love and care for one another- that is why we seek to live in communities. And even if you don't believe in God, I bet you believe in love. The greatest, most powerful force on the earth. How could something so powerful, so uncontrollable, and so indescribable come from any other source than a divine one? I don't know, I don't get it, and I presume I never will.
On a lighter note and completely separate topic, Cooper has started wearing his Clemson hoodie. He loves it. I think he likes the cold weather because he always wants to be outside now that its cooler. Oh, and I did some research on his breed- turns out they usually sleep about 13 hours a day...that explains a lot. I was starting to think he was depressed or something, but no. He is just a avid sleeper...like me. :)
Well, I think I have procrastinated on writing the 15 page Spanish paper enough for one night. And before I forget- Happy Birthday to my baby cousin, Thomas. He isn't really a baby anymore- he is 16 haha, but he will always be the baby. I remember going to the hospital to see him when he was born and carrying him around until he was probably 6, which was when I was told that I wasn't allowed carry him around anymore, he was a big boy and needed to walk. :)
And one more thing, a HUGE thank you to all veterans and to those currently serving in our armed forces! I have always held a special place in my heart for members of the armed forces, and now- ironically (and seriously sappily) my heart belongs to a member of our armed forces. :) Go Navy.
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